I was hoping to learn a few things
I’m dying to know
do you do you like dreaming of things
so impossible or only the practical
or ever the wild or waiting through all your bad bad days
just to end them with
someone you care about
and do you like making out
and long drives and brown eyes
and guys that just
don’t quite fit in
– DC So Impossible
Some times I imagine that the way you seem to look at me and I think I see it. The smallest flicker of passion towards me. I think in my head “really we are just delaying what is gonna play out, we are just too investest in each other’s lives to walk away.” Then I reconsider and come to my senses. I have the strongest desire just to reach out and touch you but I know how these things have played out before and keep my wandering hands to myself. I know all the reasons why it should be you but all the other reasons sound better to me. You were missed tonight, mostly by me, hopefully soon I will see thee.
I should be learning more of the french that I’m gonna be tested on tomorrow, but I cannot concentrate. I just wanna read my book and hide away. I don’t wanna go to class, either of mine, tomorrow. Someday I will be teaching the class and I hope to look forward to those classes.
I know what I want to do, I know what I need to do, and I know what everyone else wants me to do. How can a people pleaser please everyone, including herself? Do I stay or do I go? How do I tell everyone that I’m going regardless. I just want to be independent and my own person before I have to go be a part of the big scary world. I wish I could cut my cords easier.
I’ve started a new book, Extras. If you’ve never read the Uglies, Pretties, Specials series then you totally should. They are really good books. I couldn’t put them down and finished them in a weekend… all of them. So far so good. Next on my list is Twlight and I get to see what the whole edward cullen thing is about.
I need a good dashboard concert to make my life happier. But Panic[!] is soon so that’ll do.
