Oh when you held my hand, I knew that it was now or never
Oh when I look back now
That summer seemed to last forever
And if I had the choice
Ya – I’d always wanna be there
Those were the best days of my life
– Bryan Adams Summer of ‘69
I don’t want to be this kid. Who looks back and wonders “what happened to all that time” or “what did I do with my life.” But it seems to be my destiny. I hope that the next year of my life brings more than this one did.
Everytime I hear Summer of 69 I’ll think of you. I’ll remember that feeling of sitting in the car and singing it with you at the top of my lungs and playing silly card games the whole way home and wishing that that day never had to end. Maybe things will change this May, and maybe not. Who knows but God. I just wish I could see down the road and what our relationships are to each other’s lives. Eh. You’ll probably go off to college and find someone and I’ll just stay here wishing and wondering.
I know I should be writing papers but I don’t want to. I should be doing a lot of things but I resist. I just want it all to be over. I want to be an adult and have a real life and I want to know how it is all gonna play out. But I guess thats the point of growing up, making mistakes and learning and growing. I know that I need to pull my act together but I just wanna goof off and be the teenager that I never got to be. I have too much fun just sitting around the house and playing games and doing nothing with my time.
I saw you two having sex Saturday night. No worries, I was angry but now I understand. I still don’t think that you will make it in the long run, or atleast I hope not cause I really don’t like him most of the time. I want your happiness. Once you start school again maybe you’ll realize how different you are from him. I just don’t think if yall fight as much as you do now in the future that you will be very happy..
